The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. Audrey Hepburn
I have been flipping through my pictures on my phone to try and muster up the inspiration to write an inspiring, passionate, body positive piece, but I can not find it. I see acne and back rolls, and lack luster hair. I have been sitting here for an hour trying to come up with the perfect punch line, but in truth my lack of inspiration is coming from deep within on this subject, and as I work through this journey to conquer body doubt I realize this may just be the first baby step I needed.
I found out about the art of Boudoir Photography in my early 20's, it seemed to me to be the height of a women who has the utmost confidence in herself. I wanted to be that person looking into the camera lens with steamy eyes, and cheeky playfulness. I wanted to be totally uninhibited and pleased with just myself. As the years have been rolling by I continued to put off this treat for one reason or another, not enough money not enough time, I needed to lose weight, get in better shape. So many excuses. Weirdly, the time came at the point in my life where I am probably feeling the least confident in my body. Rated R for Racy and Beautiful.
~Goals that are not written down are just wishes~
If you have not heard me say it before I will be surprised. I like notes, calendars and lists. I feel more motivated when I can sit down, put pen to paper and clear up my mind. Everything has a nice order and seems easier to accomplish. Now generally that is as far as I get, I am actually really bad at putting the check marks beside the 'to do'. I have made my lists public before and they did not provide any more motivation than if I had kept it private. So please, feel free to cheer me on as I try to accomplish 40 things before I turn 40. Gosh that sounds scary enough on its own.